tragic that i can't find the tumblr post from before the anime aired where someone was speculating that they were carrying shovels in the promo to bury a body
not really... i mean you all messaged our team that one time but i'm not that great at like, approaching people, so i feel kind of bad about that now though he seemed cool and i think a lot of people liked him
[ actually, rin would be the one better suited for this situation. he'd probably be able to carry the conversation more gracefully. instead, haru is here, taking fifteen minutes to write one text. ]
ive taken time for granted you should reach out more
[ for a few hours after the execution, simon just retreats to his warehouse, but eventually he'll be out wandering around.
haru's pretty close to the top of the list of people he wants to check in with given, well, everything, so whenever he catches sight of him, he'll come over, raising his hand in a sort of half-wave. ]
[ not me constantly forgetting simon is older than him
in the later evening hours, haru is over by the park, chilling by one of the lakes. visibility is only mid, but that doesn't seem to bother him. he looks back from where he's sitting and gives a little half-wave right back. ]
...Fine. [ kind of at the bottomed-out portion of the emotional shockwave. ] I'm okay. But it doesn't feel over.
[ it's weird, waiting for the next morning like that's a fresh start. ]
[ simon your babyface and also general sad crying baby vibes
he shakes his head. ]
No. [ especially after how many ghost rins have come and gone ] More like... This didn't really matter. [ there's no real closure. it's not like it brought rin back. ]
...Yeah. Finding out who really killed Knightley didn't feel that satisfying either. He was still gone, and the whole situation just... kind of felt sad, when I actually thought about it.
[ he's chilling at the cemetery. why? why not. the vibes here don't bother him overly much, even with the penitentiary looming in the background. he's also got a cup from the mime cafe, which was even worse than this place. ]
[ frankly he minds this less than he does the penitentiary, although it's still kind of creepy. jury's out on where the mime cafe fits in on this spectrum. ]
[ unlike me, simon is smart enough to infer that haru will probably be at the pool, so here he is. he'll stand somewhere to the side with his hands in his pockets and look over. ]
[ thankfully it should be pretty easy to guess where the hell haru will be, though he's very tense. moreso than he was at trial. his expression maintains a pretty staid exterior, though. ]
...It wasn't a message. We have our reasons, but it's not that.
[ it'd be a lot easier to blame an ominous message though, huh? ]
Fei Du... understood why we were doing what we did. That's why we didn't fight. [ ... ] That's not an excuse. But people should know he was generous. Even to us.
So the gun and everything was after he'd... crashed there on his own?
[ it's really hard to believe none of them spending the night at the waterfall heard any of this, even though he knows it was supposedly the same for other groups before. ]
[ he's quiet for a long moment; his expression doesn't give much away, but the lack of answer speaks its own volumes. eventually, ]
No. It was. She's not wrong. [ ... ] I know you've been betrayed before—and we did that. To you, Nahri, everyone.
...But we decided it couldn't be you. You couldn't take the fall for it. Everything Ylfa and Gerard said at the end—it wasn't a lie. [ even if it meant hot mess ended up losing someone. even if he's sure people think they should've died instead. it doesn't make it right. it's just the choice they made. ]
[ he bites his lip, quiet for a moment as he appears to take this in. ]
Well, um. I-I still appreciate you guys doing that for us... a-and I still don't think any of you are bad people, or anything... It's just a tough situation for everybody.
[ ... ]
That was... just Miss Shenhe though, right? Y-you don't know what happened to Miss Lambda...
I—no. Don't appreciate anything. We still put you in danger by hiding what we did.
[ trying to get another team voted for in the end doesn't change that. it's more of an apology than anything. the next thing makes him just as discomfited, quiet. ]
...I've learned some stuff about Lambda. Enough to guess that you're innocent. But I promised not say anything about it. ...I'm really sorry. I can only answer things about Shenhe and Fei Du.
[ he looks at him for a moment, then looks away. ]
How about... a suggestion about where I might want to start looking if I want to learn about it for myself? You wouldn't be telling me anything you actually learned, so... I-I don't think that would be breaking a promise...
[ there's a long silence, and though he's still not making eye contact, there's a slight rise in tension that's just barely visible as he shifts his stance. ]
Fine.
[ still soft, but with a tinge of coldness that wasn't there a moment ago.
...a pig wanders onto the scene to drop off a memory and then disappear again, and after a few seconds of hesitation, he turns to leave too, without comment. ]
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week 1, friday: text
hey...
i'm really sorry
i know it hurts really bad to lose a best friend suddenly like this so
i don't mind listening if you want to talk sometime
and i mean if you don't that's cool too
[ whether he feels like responding or not, the offer will be there!! ]
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thanks
i dont know what to say though
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if there's nothing you feel like saying right now don't worry about it
and i'm sure the rest of your team will be there for you if you need it too, they seem nice
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people have been kind
[ like leaving well wishes at a funeral ]
did you know rin?
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i'm not that great at like, approaching people, so
i feel kind of bad about that now though
he seemed cool and i think a lot of people liked him
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[ actually, rin would be the one better suited for this situation. he'd probably be able to carry the conversation more gracefully. instead, haru is here, taking fifteen minutes to write one text. ]
ive taken time for granted
you should reach out more
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i mean, that would make it harder to lose them
but it's also sad if they don't have anyone around who can remember them, so
you're probably right
week 1, post-execution
haru's pretty close to the top of the list of people he wants to check in with given, well, everything, so whenever he catches sight of him, he'll come over, raising his hand in a sort of half-wave. ]
...How're you doing?
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in the later evening hours, haru is over by the park, chilling by one of the lakes. visibility is only mid, but that doesn't seem to bother him. he looks back from where he's sitting and gives a little half-wave right back. ]
...Fine. [ kind of at the bottomed-out portion of the emotional shockwave. ] I'm okay. But it doesn't feel over.
[ it's weird, waiting for the next morning like that's a fresh start. ]
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You mean like, you feel like you'll see him again...? Or...
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he shakes his head. ]
No. [ especially after how many ghost rins have come and gone ] More like... This didn't really matter. [ there's no real closure. it's not like it brought rin back. ]
Not when we'll do just do it over again.
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[ he nods, looking at the water. ]
...Yeah. Finding out who really killed Knightley didn't feel that satisfying either. He was still gone, and the whole situation just... kind of felt sad, when I actually thought about it.
w3 ; tues
Wonder if it's haunted here.
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Uh... Do you want it to be...?
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Hm. [ he seriously considers this ] I wouldn't mind that. Could be fun.
[ like a haunted house! ]
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anyway wtf dude was that house last weekend not horrifying enough for you??? ]
I-I don't think it'd be that fun... isn't holding grudges and messing with the living like, a big ghost thing?
[ ... ]
I mean, I guess we're not really the living, but.
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It's fun when it's not real.
[ it's fun to scare your friends :) ]
Besides, I don't think there's ghosts here. Or maybe even bodies.
week 4, saturday
...What happened?
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What part?
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[ it'd be a lot easier to blame an ominous message though, huh? ]
Fei Du... understood why we were doing what we did. That's why we didn't fight. [ ... ] That's not an excuse. But people should know he was generous. Even to us.
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[ interesting. he wonders who actually got that message this week, then. ]
...But yeah, I can believe that about him.
So you talked first, and then... raced, or what?
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[ he pauses, considering how to word this next bit delicately. ]
It sort of—it might've been the wine. ...He rode off that waterfall.
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So the gun and everything was after he'd... crashed there on his own?
[ it's really hard to believe none of them spending the night at the waterfall heard any of this, even though he knows it was supposedly the same for other groups before. ]
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Yeah. ...It'd have taken him a long time to just die like that.
[ but like also they were going to kill him anyway so it feels silly to call it a mercy thing ]
I didn't know anything about Zelda or the others. We didn't run into each other, or anything.
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... ]
What Miss Nahri was saying about you guys being involved last week... wasn't true, was it?
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No. It was. She's not wrong. [ ... ] I know you've been betrayed before—and we did that. To you, Nahri, everyone.
...But we decided it couldn't be you. You couldn't take the fall for it. Everything Ylfa and Gerard said at the end—it wasn't a lie. [ even if it meant hot mess ended up losing someone. even if he's sure people think they should've died instead. it doesn't make it right. it's just the choice they made. ]
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[ he bites his lip, quiet for a moment as he appears to take this in. ]
Well, um. I-I still appreciate you guys doing that for us... a-and I still don't think any of you are bad people, or anything... It's just a tough situation for everybody.
[ ... ]
That was... just Miss Shenhe though, right? Y-you don't know what happened to Miss Lambda...
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I—no. Don't appreciate anything. We still put you in danger by hiding what we did.
[ trying to get another team voted for in the end doesn't change that. it's more of an apology than anything. the next thing makes him just as discomfited, quiet. ]
...I've learned some stuff about Lambda. Enough to guess that you're innocent. But I promised not say anything about it. ...I'm really sorry. I can only answer things about Shenhe and Fei Du.
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All right.
[ he looks at him for a moment, then looks away. ]
How about... a suggestion about where I might want to start looking if I want to learn about it for myself? You wouldn't be telling me anything you actually learned, so... I-I don't think that would be breaking a promise...
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...It still would be. [ breaking his promise. ]
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Fine.
[ still soft, but with a tinge of coldness that wasn't there a moment ago.
...a pig wanders onto the scene to drop off a memory and then disappear again, and after a few seconds of hesitation, he turns to leave too, without comment. ]
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